On What I did Today

My husband has stopped asking me “What did you do today?” He knows it really pisses me off.

I’m a stay-at-home mom that secretly hates being a stay-at-home mom. I am so bored and incredibly lonely. 

Today, after the kids went to school I had to pace myself for my one big outing. I had to go to Kohl’s and return the over-priced gym shoes I bought for my five-year-old. She needed ones with velcro straps because I guess teachers/kids are lazy. I had to go to three different stores to find ones with velcro straps. That was a busy day… hooray.

Anyway, the shoes were too expensive since my staying at home means we are broke. So I’m at Kohl’s, which could not be any more depressing – did I mention it was raining? – when I catch a glimpse of myself in one of the store mirrors.

Oh My God. I looked so FAT.  It was disgusting. I looked disgusting. I was wearing an old a t-shirt that made me look lumpy and cargo pants that were stained and too short. My face was all blotchy, my glasses were crooked and my hair was all fuzzy from the rain.

I couldn’t shake the image. I was so depressed that I returned the shoes quickly and then raced home to change.  

I pulled my hair back.  Put on some lipstick, a crisp black shirt, jeans and black ballet flats. I modeled in front of the mirror.  I felt a little better.  I looked a little better.

But then I was all dressed up and had no where to go — which was even more depressing. I had wasted my bad outift on my one big outing. 

So I went to Target and bought some rubber bands and a Starbucks.

That’s what I did today.